Today,
I was having a little chat with a random person by messenger. Too bad i did not copy-and-paste the conversation history, it could be fun to have it posted here.
Well, but i don’t think it was sort of a worthy information to be written here anyway. Ok, random opening.
N = E :::> Nothing is Everything
I just knew somehow that “something” is really means a lot when we really don’t think about it. Well, today i happened to have conversation with two random persons from an internet messenger. One person is the one that was included in the random opening above, the other one is a person who is actually my “online-friend”.
Well, let’s talk about the point of our chat conversation with the “second person”.
I was saying “hi” to him first, then he replied, then i replied back, then the chat was becoming a conversation.
I was basically telling him to read my tumblr. (this tumblr.) and see what he had in his mind.
At the end, he told me that THIS TUMBLR is a TOTAL MESSED UP!
I laughed, then told him that he was right. This tumblr. account’s content is a total-mess. lol (although I did not think that way before, but when he said it, it was not wrong either, its true. lol)
So from here, I just wanna give an information that this tumblr account might not gonna be activated again, because this doesn’t bring out anything clear to the readers. And I know..somehow when we read some “stories” here, those are somehow confusing and..you know..sort of “lazy” (please mind me if its not)
Anyway, I’m not gonna delete this tumblr. account, but later I’ll be posting a new link to my new blog or maybe tumblr. again, we’ll see =)
But for a moment, I’m just gonna keep things for myself again =) maybe it would be better this way though.
So, Thank you if you read my tumblr., or just visiting this page =) and I apologize if many posts are confusing or not pleasing to be read.
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About Nothing is Everything.. is the last personal message that I can share to you in this page.
It’s simple, but yet, somehow..complicated. Nothing is Everything, I would like to call this statement more as a ‘philosophy’. (Just found the meaning today btw,sorry if my pov might be wrong here, but anyway, i love to think a lot, and also based from others’ “life-experience” that I observed..and mine.., here’s my result.) :::>
Nothing is Everything, a death..could actually be a reborn;
Nothing is Everything, a broken-heart..could actually be a medicine for the past;
Nothing is Everything, a loud song..could actually be a silent heart;
Nothing is Everything, an unbreakable object..could actually be the most fragile;
Nothing is Everything, a beautiful fairy-tale..could actually be the ugliest reality;
Nothing is Everything, “is that all?”..could actually be a way to your own continuous journey/life journey;
Nothing is Everything, a very strong belief..could actually be a weak spot that vulnerable;
Nothing is Everything, a question mark..could actually be the only key to find out;
Nothing is Everything, an ugliest reality..could actually be a test for each one of us;
Nothing is Everything, who you are..could actually be your shadow;
Nothing is Everything, a tick-tock..could actually be the last thing you hear;
Nothing is Everything,
Nothing is Everything, all..is nothing;
All..is either black or white..
Everything..are neither black or white;
Nothing is Everything, a world-insanity..could actually be a key to the world peace;
Nothing is Everything, an idealism..could actually be a non-sense;
Nothing is Everything, Nothing is what it seems..the end, could actually be a new journey;
Nothing is Everything, a new start-over is..could actually be what you really need..
Nothing is Everything…
Cheers
Ok, time to tell a boring story.. again.. (—-______——”)
Somehow..gw belakangan ini suka nge-tweet yg aneh2..either mungkin ada yg menyebut pelepas stress, atau asbun(alias, asal bunyi), atau mungkin tweet sotoy yg ngotot atas pendapat diri sendiri, atau apalah sebutan masing2 dari banyak yg liat tweet2 tersebut.
Gw sendiri—secara pribadi—menyebut itu sebagai “sarana pelepas pemikiran2 atas dogma orang2 yg perpendapat/nge-judge diri gw di masa lalu yang membuat gw gak berpikir jernih, alias PENAT”. Panjang banget sebutannya? emang, mau apa lg? gw bisanya nyebutnya gitu, dan begitulah kejadiannya.
Kadang,diselubungi perasaan marah juga ketika ALMOST EVERYDAY hanya hal2 ituuuu ituuu aja yg ada dikepala gw. Karena gw cuma menginginkan seolah seperti ini, “OKE DEH,lo menilai diri gw terserah dengan sudut pandang lo. Kalo lo bilang gw egois, ok, gw jadi egois. Lo bilang gw kurang ajar atau biadap dan semacamnya, ok, I’lbe like that. Lo bilang gw childish, ok, gw childish. Lo bilang gw GAK MANDIRI, ok, gw akan MANJA DAN NYUSAIN LO. PUAS?! MAMPUS LO!” semacam itulah yg ada dalam intensi atas tidak jernihnya gw belakangan ini. Terkesan memang seperti semuanya tidak diolah secara matang, dan MEMANG, gw sadar pemikiran ini tidak diolah secara matang2. Karena jujur aja, ada unsur ky..’membalas dendam’ juga, walaupun gw tau sadar bgt kalo itu bener2 sesuatu yg tidak boleh dilakukan.
But,coba deh..make sense gak sih..kalo misalnya hampir kira2 11tahun hidup kita,ada anger sama orang lain yg kita bener2 redeem, kita istilahnya..”bodo amat”..yg penting gw selalu menjadi individu yg lebih baik lg..gak nyusain orang lain..yg penting intention gw selalu baik. Tapi tiba2 ada masa down,dimana hal2 tersebut keluar..dan seperti ingin ditunjukkan..istilahnya..karena kita sendiri gak terima diperlakukan tidak baik sama orang lain..padahal intention kita tu positif. baik.
Dan yg gw inginkan adalah berteriak. TEREEEAAAKK SEKERAS MUNGKIN.
Gw mau satu persatu para “manusia2” itu merasakan painful yg sama ky gw. Bahkan I curse a lot belakangan ini. Either itu..dalam prayer..maupun hanya sekedar berbicara dalam hati. Malah kadang gw berimajinasi yg…haduh…ya gitulah..gak disebut. Dan semua itu..gw bener2..I’m sick of everything, and i feel crazy.
Bayangin, misalnya tujuan lo encourage orang lain, tapi entah kenapa orang2 tersebut gak bisa MENANGKAP makna dari intention actions lo. Entah mereka terlalu STUPID atau IDIOT.
Anyway, Dari dulu semua kenalan2 tau gw sebagai manusia “aneh”(either positif atau negatif, terserah deh gimana sebutannya mereka) yg “gila”,dan lain2.. Tapi giliran gw berkenalan atau bicara..having conversation sama respected people yg JAUH JAUH JAUH lebih pintar dari kenalan2 seumuran gw..dan wiser wiser wiser dari mereka, these respected people told me that “You’re Kampiun”, “Kamu berbeda dari anak2 kebanyakan”, “Wow..Kamu tu hebat lho”, etc.. All POSITIVE feedback. So that means, there is nothing wrong with me. Itu hanya orang2 lain aja yg berpendapat tanpa dasar yg jelas. Hanya berbasis kepercayaan pribadi atau analisa2 yg gak qualitative dan quantitative sama sekali. Level-headed? NO WAY. Gak logis, dsb.. Dan lagi pula, gw pun tidak merasa hebat dengan feedback2 positif itu, biasa aja. tapi itu sebagai dorongan gw bahwa “Gw Baik2 aja..nothing freaky” (kecuali kalau memang sedang ber-akting freaky2 gak jelas lol)
But nothing to worry about..Luckily, dari dulu gw bisa meng-handle semuanya dengan baik2 saja. Malah kadang gw bisa “detect” “Jealous Alert”, tapi bisa salah juga.
Tapi gw pun sangat appreciate pendapat2 mereka walaupun tidak sepenuhnya benar dan bahkan nyaris dan even salah. Biar gimana pun, gw masih bisa seneng karena temen2 gw ini berani dan bisa berpendapat, walaupun salah, tapi at least..didengar.
Dan pada akhirnya, gw end-up mendengar pendapat2 itu, dan menjadikan itu sebagai “alat” untuk menjadi pribadi yg lebih baik lg. D
—- Anyway… the story is long enough for today. Jadi bagi yg baca, maaf kalo somehow confusing atau nyebelin atau apalah. Dengan story-conclusion yg..mungkin bisa dibilang gak ada.
Tapi Pesennya adalah :::> If anything is happened to you, KEEP being an open-minded, jangan biarkan diri lo terperangkap dengan pendapat2 orang lain yg belum tentu benar. At the end, itu hanya menghambat kita untuk berkembang lebih jauh dan “membutakan” passion dan arah/tujuan hidup kita mau ke mana.
Trus.. yg ini dasar bgt. Pilih2 juga orang yang bisa dijadikan temen baik. Bersosialisasi dengan semua orang, tapi untuk temen, ITS A BIG NO-NO berdekatan dengan orang yg hanya bisa annoying, sirik, dan membuat kita down(bahkan membuat orang lain down, well..kita bisa menilai kan?). Tapi LEARN from them, and love them. Inget, SAHABAT lo adalah orang yg bisa menilai lo OBJECTIVELY, tapi juga bisa saling respect satu sama lain, dan saling take-and-give..and its balance.
Satu lg..sangat dasar juga.. hmm.. ok gw lupa xP (seriously gw lupa lol =D)
And thanks thanks a lot for reading this non-sense (maybe, yeah..somehow it is, right?)
—- Dan..untuk yg gak baca atau baca sekilas.. maaf / sori ya.. kesannya annoying bgt.. yg gak berkualias bgt isinya.. seolah labil. lol. And thank you for visiting this Tumblr Account =D
Wish ALL OF YOU are having a nice day
And anyway, today’s my brother’s birthday =D
I’m super-duper totally in LOOOOVEEE =D with Robin Thicke *love love love
When I heard his song “Love After War”, “Lost Without You”, and other songs, I was quickly fell in love with his music.
Then today I just opened his website robinthicke.com THEN I FALL IN LOVE MORE AND MORE ^^
He is genius, and I’m totally in LOVE with his works *love
::: Robin Thicke with His Wife, Paula Patton
Its been a year.. or maybe less.. =)
Its just..been a long time since i post my thoughts in tumblr, besides just info-posting (and it was only 1, haha)
I believe..nobody would even read this..i mean, maybe yes to random anonymous readers =) but not to my friends or so-called friends(just say hi friends)..they might not interested with my life though haha (maybe because i talked too much and being annoying that time, although i was just trying to be funny. haha, so non-sense)
Its been..good here actually, since December after I received a notification that I was graduated from Uni outside my country which took 1 year of study period. Well..it’s actually kind of funny, because i thought i wouldn’t graduate that time =) my scores were pretty low..although i performed(sometimes) okay when i joined the class..but..still..it was a SHOCK. In a good way =)
I was spending my time in Uni during 2011 with so much..i dont know..pressure? Yes, a pressure. A thing, that is so common to people, but I’ve never felt sooo pressured before. I mean, i had one before, but not too much..and i could still handle my life well, and everything was okay, i knew what i was doing, i knew what i wanna do..what to do..bla bla bla..everything.
I mean, this pressure..I dont know..
its just..I spent 1 year in another country without a passion like i had imagine before, and without a good relationship with some of my friends. and they are good ones. Thank God i still could have fun in there with another friends =) (especially 5 sisters dorm-mates)
If I give a picture about my life for about 1 year in 2011, and another previous 1 year in 2010..it was..kinda rough..i dont even want to remember every detail of it,and sometimes i hate myself (lol) for being soo….capable in memorizing everything around my life, well not exactly with the color details or any visualization, but its more to the feels,emotions,characteristics,conversations,blahblah..and things like that.
So..it sometimes make me sick that it was hard for me to get over everything,every bad experience that happened for 2 years. And the worst thing was..when some of the bad experience is actually caused by me..by my action,that maybe..could make people around me..feel harmed? And it was difficult for me,to forgive myself,although other people that might feel harmed was already..had no problem with that. So..it became..my OWN issue. so stupid,huh? haha. So then,you guys can call me..a downer..stupid self-centered person,not interesting person,blablabla..anything you want. But..one thing for sure,this is just not about my story. Many people out there had this kind of problem too,perhaps..in a different situation..in many different ways. At the end,we all just can say.. shit happens. =) (and in intent to defend myself, i was NEVER meant to harm others)
In continued to the last paragraph above, haha, its funny.. Sometimes,I do not like seeing a downer..fragile people,especially when they post their problem-statements in social media like twitter,blogs,etc. Because for me,its just like,”come on! you don’t wanna ruin every minute of your life by just doing nothing and whining.” I mean,I’m not a believer of “life is too short to—blahblah” and i dont like that statement either. but i do understand that every minute of our life is precious,not because life is too short or connect it with any “life-quotes”(lol). its just..it is make sense that..especially from the examples around us,we can always learning from others,right? Every people has their own mission and purpose in life. Well,i dont mean to exalt the value of the statement. But..that is HOW we all live in this world. And maybe,although if we havent found any life-purpose,we still have dreams..and those things..haha,accept it,those are things that make us feel alive,right? at least we know that we have a reason.
Yeah..the funny things is..I was—myself being a downer for around 2 years. haha,again..life sucks at that time.
—to be continued—
There is an issue from yesterday’s International Herald Tribune, titled, “Turning away from Facebook.”
‘Ahead of its public share offering, the social network is running into a roadblock.’
Here is the complete version from NYTimes -> http://www.nytimes.com/2011/12/14/technology/shunning-facebook-and-living-to-tell-about-it.html?_r=1&scp=1&sq=tyson%20balcomb&st=cse
Some of people from society, according on how have been observed, are turning away from Facebook and even some other social media. Is it related with social health issue, or people are ‘just’ started to get bored?
What do you think?
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